feelin' da love

after not being able to face the day yesterday - today had a much brighter sheen to it. my eternal dangling job lead came a little bit more solid today and i should know full details on monday or tuesday next week. i am the leading candidate, but will have to convince them that i would not be leaving the position any time soon. if that's the only stumbling block, i should be able to do a good job of convincing them that after the year of uncertainty i've had (laid off for a year and recently evicted from my apartment) that i will be looking to root somewhere so solidly that they'd have to set off plastique to get rid of me. i shall be like fleas on a dog. i shall evoke the power of the tree and just not move. even further than that, i will become like the moss and lichens which grow upon said trees. they will not shake me.

i just want a home! both to live in and to work in.

and since right now i'm doing hourly work for them, i did not expect to receive any money for the time when the office was closed for the christmas holidays. well guess again. they estimated how many hours i would of worked, had the office been open and paid me for them. i almost started crying. it was a totally unexpected and lovely surprise. yey. i'm getting teary just thinking about it again.

another lovely thing. i got a ride home from work with about 15 flattened boxes. time to start packing the non-essentials. my problem is that i have spent large portions of my life being a pack-rat. i loved to accumulate and hated to purge. i've gotten better in the past 5 years or so - but i think i may need to purge again. and i have so many books. so, so, so, so, so many books. and i can't bear to get rid of most of them. i will be day-tripping down to the local used bookshops to see if they will buy some, but i hate to sell something i may re-read. same goes for cd's. except i have A LOT i'd like to sell. been-there-and-will-never-do-that-again sort of stuff. *shudders*

and i also was forwarded a project manager job at a web development company. i hate web development and it's not my first choice - but it is a job and i have all the experience and qualifications they call for. not to mention that someone my roomie used to work with is currently a director at the company. that alone should give me an interview. but one can just never tell these days.

[music | franz ferdinand, "evil and a heathen"]