8.29.2006

so we've started a pool at work - a rockstar pool. or rather, i should say - i've started a pool! i've never run one before and i've never even BEEN in one. it's fun making up the rules. heehee. and somehow, i'm in the lead!

so, before i start sobbing like dilana (not to mention throwing red goblets around), lets go into the performances. even though it is oh-so-lame to let the fans pick the songs. i'd rather see the band pick songs for the performers.

lukas rossi - lithium (nirvana)
how can this guy not be the winner? just how? i usually can not stand it when the 'rawkers' mess with nirvana - but that was brilliant.

magni - i alone (live)
yet another live cover. i don't like live - but magni puts that band to shame. he is really oh so good. and he wipes up the floor with live. what a voice.

ryan starr - clocks (coldplay)
gag. can't say i enjoy his falsetto. rough rough rough. did he lose his razor? he is fake. contrived. and a poser.
storm large - bring me to life (evanescence)
this was not at all in her style or register - but she pulled it off. she pulled it off so much that i forgot to type and just watched the performance. :-) and toby was incredible too.

toby rand - rebel yell (billy idol)
oh - if only he'd of coloured his hair platinum for this week! :-) i bow down to you toby. this was entertaining, and perfect for him. and the crowd ate it up. so did i. and oh, with the fans, so so so freakin cool. so much fun. it's now between toby and lukas.

dilana - mother mother (tracy bonham)
i can't believe i feel this way - but i really never need to see this woman perform again. and she's got the chipmunk voice going on again - just like when she sang the supernova song.

my picks for bottom three - storm, ryan and magni. my pick to go home - though i'd do cartwheels to see ryan go home - i'm afraid it's magni's week. he's just not disturbed enough to front that band.

8.22.2006

rockstar : supernova : week eight

apparently the last episode of rockstar : supernova is on september 13th. that's pretty close. these are the best performers on the entire season (well, with a certain exception that is. zayra should be there instead of patrice) and evey week should be outstanding. so what is in store for us this week?

patrice pike - beautiful thing (original)
if you've been reading this - you know i detest this woman's performance. this didn't do anything to help change my mind. well, except for the fact i liked her eye-makeup. is this song still on? it's v.e.r.y. long. very.

magni - smells like teen spirit - nirvana
ooh - what's with the touque? no no no. that being said - he always delivers a very impassioned and professional performance. he's incredible.

ryan star - back of your car (original)
ok, his reprieve of a few weeks ago has spent itself out. yes, it's loud and yes it's fast. however, it's also flirting a bit too much with radio-land for me. it's ok to be commercial and sell records and be on billboard's charts - but i just don't go for the live/goo goo dolls thing. many many people do though.

storm large - crying - aerosmith
i really think she should of fought for her original song - i mean, the broadcast royalties off of that thing alone! all the markets and territories that the show is aired in - major money folks. but i digress. i think she did a great job on that song. her vocal delivery was sultry and powerful, her performance was interesting too. yey storm!

dilana - every breath you take - the police
dilana is fabulous. we all know this. but for some reason i just didn't feel a connection in this performance until she hit the latter half of the song. i really hate to say it, but most of this performance felt like a wedding band.

toby rand - layla - eric clapton
i think that after patrice leaves this week, that we will see toby go home next. i think we've seen all the tricks in his bag. he does have a very very very hot body. ;-)

lukas - all these things that i've done - the killers
i loves me some killers. swoon. really really do. he did a great job at this song. the beginning gave me such goosebumps, it got a bit patchy for a bit and then it got really good again. but like gilby mentioned - it is very very odd when lukas turns his back to the crowd so often. so strange. regardless. lukas will win this competition. is it ok for two canadians in a row to win?

8.20.2006

pages of a not-so-open book

don't ask me why, but i was inspired by an email i recieved - feel free to post the same on your own blog...

2 moments in your life you’d like to erase


1 - the time i was too afraid to go to a concert by myself. after a phone interview tori amos asked me if i'd be going to her upcoming show in toronto. i'd told her i wasn't able to afford a ticket and she said, 'what's money between friends. i'll put you on the list. i'd like to meet you.' comes the day of the show and i was throwing up all day. could of been 24-hour flu or it could of been nerves. i've regretted it ever since. it taught me to hate regret and taught me to allow myself the strength to make choices that i won't regret.
2 - the time i had to help my mom hide the easter baskets for myself and my younger brother and sister.

3 moments you'd like to re-live

1 - any moment where i was laughing to the point of tears. i love those moments.
2 - when my in grade 7 my phys. ed. teacher told me i was very graceful; as i'd lived my life believing i was clumsy and awkward.
3 - the feeling i had sitting by the sacred lake at karnak temple in luxor, egypt.


2 places you wouldn’t want to go again

1 - high school - for obvious reasons
2 - athens, greece - i got yelled at too many times for it to have been enjoyable.

3 places you can’t wait to visit/visit again

nyc - my current travel-crush
montreal - it's been so long... i miss the people and the streets and the shopping
london - to see the things i didn't care to see when i was silly and 24.

2 foods you can’t stand

meat - i'm a veggie
daal - i love indian food, but can not stand to eat daal. *shudder* it's the texture, i think.

3 foods you love

tofu and veggies in thai red curry
dishes with mushrooms and tomatos (fresh or sundried)
my mom's saskatoon pie


2 current songs that make you change the station

i don't listen to the radio anymore - there are FAR too many songs that made me want to change the station that i eventually turned it off for good.


4 current songs you play over and over

the music - david usher
when you were young - the killers
is it any wonder? - keane
lips like morphine - kill hannah

2 books you’d never finish/read again

the english patient - michael ondaatje - tried several times, but found it way to pretentious
when we were orphans - ishiguro kazuo - could not get through this one and won't try again

4 books you have read more than once

the chronicals of narnia (all volumes, several times)
neverwhere - neil gaiman (have re-read all of his novels)
eva luna - isabelle allende (loved this one so much that i read it a second time right after the first time)
dracula - bram stoker (probably partly responsible for my love of vampires and bats)

[music | muse, "starlight"]

8.19.2006

toronto zoo and tattoos

the things we do to entertain ourselves. my past weekend involved the zoo and a tattoo. a virtual study in extremes.

first, i had a tattoo re-done on saturday. the poor thing (a bat on my upper arm) was done in august of 1993 and the artist that did it has died of a drug overdose. lovely. i now go to a new artist, one who does not seem like a heroin addict and he did a great job of making my poor sad and neglected bat look all shiny and new again. if you're interested in getting work done - go to jay at passage. he's incredible.

and for all those lovely individuals out there who told me that getting a tat retouched hurts because they're going over scar tissue - you're wrong. getting the damned thing feels exactly the same as getting any old tattoo. what should be said, however, is that the healing process is much longer, much more intense and generally not fun at all. i'm now just hoping that all the colour took - so i can avoid the healing again!

also - i ended up booking a new appointment for a new tattoo... :-) i'm getting it at the end of october. as long as the money holds out, i'll be inking myself.... i can feel the images attaching themselves to my skin as i tap away.

but the real reason for my post today is to put up some pictures of the animals at the toronto zoo. i went on sunday and it was an incredible day. the weather really couldn't of been better (sunny and clear) and it was a fantastic day. i ended up leaving just before closing. i walked my little feet off and was feeling a little strain around my left foot for days afterward!


this guy was the coolest thing ever. i seriously fell in love with him. he'd float over the the glass, stare at the silly humans standing there, practically wink at us, and then push himself off of the glass with his back paws. really quite dramatic. you go bear!

and here he is pushing off. brilliant.


this bear was playing with a giant rubber ball. he'd push down on it with his front paws until it went shooting across the cement pond. it looked like fun and made me laugh!


the zoo now has 2 hippos in their vastly improved habitat. they spent about 30 minutes wrestling with each other. and by wrestling, i mean opening their mouths and lip wrestling. seriously. :-)


i have admitted to myself that i have a thing for giraffe's. i really do. can't get enough of them.
as evidenced by the 20-odd images on my digital camera.


this is the matriarch - tara. we happened to hit the elephants at the same time the elephant keeper was doing a q&a. hence the knowledge of the name of the matriarch... ;-)


the rhino brigade. i love the fact these three large barrel shaped tanks are standing in front of the red rocks. it's like they know a good photo op when they see it.


nothing more graceful than a swan. and this one really knew his angles. i have a second picture of him with the only difference being the fact that he's looking the other direction. very very nice.


a flock of flamingos going though some pretty serious politics. they all seemed to be having a bad day.
a very bad day.

[music | nxl, "i got a lot"]

8.15.2006

rockstar : supernova : week seven

at this point i'm not sure why some contestants are still there. well, actually just one. i'm looking at you ms. pike. and a comment about clothing... where on earth did brooke pull out that polyester nightmare? i'm figuring either an airline stewardesses or a newscasters closet - both circa 1974. and poor tommy lee. when my roomie saw him she said, "looks like tommy picked up his outfit from janet jackson's 'rhythm nation' outlet store". i thought it was pretty funny.

regardless - our 'rockers' have come to sing covers once more. and here are my thoughts, comments and other nonsence ramblings. i'm not feeling very chatty today - these will be short.

zayra alvarez - original song
for her original song, she decided to give us a very pretty spanish-language song. very pretty, her voice really suited it. would supernova do this sort of material? not in your life.

magni - starman (david fucking bowie)
entertainment weekly seems to think the gig will either go to magni or to dilanah. and with this performance i can see why. i already thought he was a strong contender - but now he's just getting better and better.

patrice pike - message in a bottle (the police)
i can say nothing nice, positive or constructive here.

lukas rossi - hero (chad kroger)
well, lukas has really found his singing voice at this point in the competition. very nice delivery. however, i hate the song he covered. and i didn't like it with lukas doing it either. it will be interesting to see what will happen as this competition goes on.

storm large - i will survive (gloria gaynor)
this was sort of lounge-singer meets drunken sailor. poor stormy. she just didn't pull this one off. and holy, holy - the comments from the band and mr. dave were really pretty rough.

toby rand - solsbury hill (peter gabriel)
why on earth are vests coming back? practically no one can pull them off. a little too cutesy for me. his voice was a little tight in his throat and a bit like a muppet's.

ryan star - in the air tonight (phil collins)
i think if i don't have to WATCH ryan that i prefer him so much more. he get's this strange and awkwardly intense look on his face and it becomes kind of funny. this song is supposed to be intense and sexy. he got the intense bit down - sort of.

dilanah - cats in the cradle
why is she acting out the song? the hand guestures were really not necessary. i think she might be getting a bit close to 'coasting-ville'.

and as far as bottom three goes. i think it'll end up being patrice, ryan and zayra - though storm may find herself down there. and who goes home. it has to be patrice.

8.08.2006

rockstar : supernova : week six

week six. it's going to get a bit better now - a lot of the people who shouldn't be there aren't there anymore. and oddly - no one seems to want to play in front of members of the band that they are there auditioning to play with. so so strange. don't they know why they're there?

dilanah - won't get fooled again (with gilby clarke) - the who
i am a dilanah. yes i am. but i have to say this was the most luke-warm i'd left one of her performances. her uniqueness was gone. less sparkle than usual. maybe it's the fact that she said she did not know the song until this show. i don't know. but i think gilby out-sang her on the chorus! (p.s. and from watching monday night's show - she doesn't seem to be much of a songwriter... i'm worried)

jill gioia - mother, mother - tracy bonham
i have to give her some credit for not screetching this song out at us - but at the same time, did she need to play dress-up and go as avril-lite tonight? i think that this gurl is another one with an performance identity-crisis. and i think we'll see her go home this week.
ryan star - paint it black - the rolling stones
i really enjoyed his vocals on this song - but did not enjoy his performance. something about his costume reminded me of a collegiate spiderman. like when toby mcguire first became spidey and made his costume out of his gym clothes. Something smacks of poser.

storm large - we are the champions - queen
she has to be the strongest and best 'singer' in the competition. she did a great version of this classic classic song. not easy to do. and that middle part where she gets the crowd involved. brilliant! way to go stormy-gurl!

zayra alvarez - all the young dudes - david bowie
i had a hard time understanding some of the lyrics in this song - but does this gurl understand spectacle, or does she understand spectacle. i think bowie would be proud of what he's wrought. her voice has some very pretty moments to it too.

josh logan - interstate love song (with tommy lee) - stone temple pilots
i spent the entirety of this song trying to block out josh's vocals to listen to tommy's drumming. i really hadn't ever paid much attention to it before. he's good. that supernova will have a good drummer holding things together. and it will get much better when southern-fried mr. agreeable (aka : josh) doesn't sing in front of it!

magni - the dolphin's cry - live
he made me forget the original version of this song. this is another performance that i'd purchase. he just laid this song down and left no questions that he has already had a career of being a rockstar. it's a lot like being big in canada - no one in the states knows who you are - unless you're a female.

patrice pike - instant karma! - john lennon
ok. we all know i don't appreciate this performer. and i did not appreciate her rendition of this lennon song.

lukas rossi - creep - radiohead
back on the bandwagon, baby. i'm so so so so sorry i hopped off. wow. i'm all a-tingle. someone i know from toronto is in l.a. right now and is going to see lukas on rockstar. i hope she was there for this performance!

toby rand - burning down the house - talking heads
finally he broke out of the seemingly self-imposed purgatory he'd put himself in the past two weeks. this was great. loads of energy and heaps of talent (but i'm with dave - i hated the megaphone. *shudder*). i think toby's discovered his unique brand of demented.

bottom three at the end of the show were jill, zayra and patrice. i agree with this - but i'd like to see josh in the bottom three. as my friend said, "who the hell out there is voting for josh every week????" i don't get it. one last note - jason newsted was very annoying this week. a little preachy. ease up there, jason.

8.02.2006

rockstar : supernova : week five

so. how hot is it in toronto these days? so hot that my modem refused to work last night. i think it had a heat stroke or something. it was so disgustingly hot last night that i went to see a movie after work (devil wears prada - and though i enjoyed it, i have some commentary on this puppy. maybe tomorrow!) and then i went to go check out slute at the crowbar. one of the new guys at work is the guitar-god in training in this band. incidentally - slute's writers are signed to the same publishing company that lukas rossi is.... it's a tiny ole world, huh?

so - regardless of the fact i'm a day late and the elimination show is on in the background, here are my comments on week five.

patrice pike - higher ground
i'm ready for this one trick pony to go home. tommy lee was incredible
and loud on the drums, but she is just boring as hell on stage. i
don't agree that she's changing it up from week to week. i think the
positive response was because of tommy lee.

josh logan - santaria
ok, i change my mind. THIS one trick pony needs to go home. he does
not know why he's there and it's a waste of time and the house band's
time, supernova's time and really, you'd think the producers would know
better than to bring this guy in for supernova.

dilanah - can't get enough
it does not matter what song she's given, she just nails the song every
time. good song, bad song - it makes no difference. she is perfect.
done and done.

toby rand - pennyroyal tea
it had moments, but overall i hate to say it, but i'm just not feeling
toby's performances. and he re-arranged on of my most beloved songs
ever.... it's hard to love that.

zayra alvarez - 867-5309/jenny

gotta hand it to this girl - she believes in every performance. she's
so not right for this band - but man, she's got a star magnet. i'd
listen to her performances over the brit's and jess's and x-tina's
every week.

magni - clocks
where is the runaway train? maybe a giant rock was rolling after magni
and the band? that must be the reason for the crazed-speed, right?

jill gioia - don't you forget about me
yes, she has an incredibly powerful voice, but she has not learned how
to control her voice apparently. why did she decide to go for the
shrill shriek? she looked a bit like a stripper without her pole this
week.

ryan star - losing my religion
ok. i take back a portion of the mean things i've said about him.
that was amazing. really really spine-chilling.

lukas rossi - celebrity skin
what did you have against the audience this week lukas? much of the
performance was with his back to the crowd - never a good move. i did
not get it this week. not at all.

storm large - changes
she picked the right time in the show to show vulnerability. and what
a great song to do it with. she's been rocking the shit out of things
and this week she delivered a beautiful song in a beautiful way.

dana andrews - baba o'reilly
she looks nearly identical to the way she looked last week. but i'm
not sure if she had the chain. i think i liked her performance, but
i'm not sure i loved it.

7.25.2006

rockstar : supernova : week four

i want to start this off by saying that this week i blogged during the performances. there are times that what i blogged nearly matched the supernova critiques. i feel so obvious! that or i've been watching this piece of cheesecake a little too long... ;-)

and if jenny's mom, friend, sibling, co-worker, fan is still reading this by any chance - i'm sorry. :-( but i think she's better off not on this show and she's better doing her own thing. i wish her the best!

lukas rossi - bittersweet symphony (the verve)
why not... he's really got a natural sense of stage presence and how to deliver a performance. and as we saw on monday's show, he's got wicked song sense too. i am starting to agree with jason newsted though, open your throat more. don't sing pretty, just sing with less gravel to get you stuck on the road.

zyara alvarez - call me (blondie)
"you're ready for intergalactic travel" - heehee. and dave navarro just said what i've been saying all along. i want her to stay so i can keep watching her - but she should have absolutely no difficulty getting quality producers, writers and players to work with her. go get'em gurl!

dana andrews - about a girl (nirvana)
this should be the theme song for a new fall show that should be called "revenge of the disturbed hillbilly". no disrespect to dana, i too am from hillbilly territory! :-) i think she nailed it tonight.

patrice pike - some remedy (black crows)
if i remember correctly, this was the girl that i thought was trying too hard with her performance the first week. since then she seems to have had lost more and more energy every week. she was pleading for remedy and really, if she'd come knocking on my door for it, i'd doubt she was really in need of anything other than a hello. what happened?

toby rand - white wedding ( billy idol)
booya? seriously? *shudder* maybe they still say that in australia.... i hate to say this, because i really like toby - but that came off a teeny tiny bit like a cover act, rather than just owning it. his voice is so strong though...

magni - heros (david bowie)
one of the best songs ever. it's pretty tough to mess this one up and thankfully magni didn't. i don't know if we need to see him on the stage with a guitar though. he moves much better without it and i think he could of translated the song just a bit better sans axe.

ryan star - i alone (live)
i liked this so much more than anything he's done for us yet - but i just can't shake the feeling that he's a stockbroker on sabbatical.

jill gioia - brown sugar (the rolling stones)
way too obvious with the sexy posturing. and her backup vocalist drowned her out in the mix. wow. i didn't think anything would drown out this woman's screetching. i used to like her a lot more than i have the past few weeks. i'm ready to see her go home.

phil ritchie - one headlight (jakob dylan)
send him home. he's WAY too full of himself, and not in any kind of way that he can back it up with any goods. i'm tired of his bobble head performances. (and apparently so are the band! lol! scary this parroting i'm doing. i'm starting to feel like a cover-reviewer)

dilanah - time after time (cyndi lauper)
pretty pretty song delivered by a somewhat scary woman. it worked. of course it did. she knows the exact right moments to allow the tension to build and where to let it out. that can't be taught.

josh logan - no rain ( blind melon)
speaking of parroting - josh just attempted to deliver a carbon copy of shannon hoon's distinctive vocals. attempted. and if you're going to do an audience sing along, please make sure the audience is actually singing along first. no no no no.

storm large - anything anything (dramarama)
i'm a storm gurl. yes i am. but i think the song sang her a little bit on this one. regardless, it was a great song to be grabbed by the neck and drug around the stage by stormy. can i see it again? :-)

in my wanderings last week i found an mp3 blog that has been including most of the tracks from the performance show. weeeee! go to the jeepney diaries and scroll down down down.....

my picks for the bottom three? patrice. josh. phil. who's going home? could be any one of them, but it may be curtains for josh. i'd say patrice, but i doubt we'll see two girls go home in a row so soon.

7.20.2006

blistering heat and feet

we've had several days of hideous hot and humid weather here in toronto. if the sun isn't beating down on you, you feel as though you are wading through hot butter. urgh. oh, did you want to sleep comfortably at night? not so fast, you great un-air conditioned masses.

and most alarming of all - last friday i heard the summer's first cicada. normally those suckers don't come out until the august long weekend. just goes to show that nature thinks it's pretty freakin' hot too.

but what is amazing about the hot weather is that you can wear girly skirts and beautiful shoes. after getting over my summer cold, i decided it was time to christen the new gorgeous shoes i'd picked up on an end-of-season sale just before the plague hit me. are these not just amazing? so so pretty! and they made me so tall and feminine. when you're 5'4" it's nice to pretend you're 5"8. ack! that's right, 4" heels.

as i left the apartment, i had a vision of me placing a pair of comfortable shoes in a bag and bringing those along - just in case. you never know how new shoes are going to treat you (normally not well). throwing caution to the wind ("i'm tall! i'm wearing a flirty skirt! look at my shoes!") i left without the sensible gear.

what a mistake. by the time i got off of the subway downtown i was feeling like i was walking a bit like one of the chinese women who'd been through a deforming foot binding. as i clomped my way through the underground i could hear a definite change in my gait. where previously i was tap-tap-tapping along, now i was whap-tap-whap-tapping along. and wondering if i'd ever seen the grocery store selling flip-flops. the answer, in case you were wondering, was"no". but being a somewhat/sometimes bright girl, i picked up a box of band-aids (55 & assorted sizes).

regardless, men held doors open for me twice as i made my way to work. i like to think it was because i was tall and wearing a flirty skirt and had empowering shoes on - but in retrospect, it may just of been because they saw me trying not to limp through doorways. they could very well of been thinking, "poor poor girl, why'd she go out without her cane?".

i walk the 10 minutes to work and at this point just dying to sit at my desk and take of my shoes and plaster my feet with band-aids. which i do. which is a good plan, until i need to use the washroom. which meant i needed to put the evil shoes back on. i do my best and wander on over to the loo and a gay co-worker sees me and says, "work it girl! you look amazing today!". i smile, thank him and then lean against the door and say i'm about to cry. immediately understanding the look in my eye in the way only a gay man or another female would, he looked down at my feet and said, "ooh, new shoes. ouch. if it's any consolation, you look great."

i could go on in a similar vein, but i think we all get the picture. i ended up having to cancel a lunch with another co-worker. i had to tell her why i needed to postpone our club monaco trip. being an amazing person, on her way back from lunch, she went to a dollar store and picked up a pair of flip flops for me to wear the rest of the day. prior to the gift of comfortable shoes, i was convinced i'd need to take a cab home. the cab would of cost about $25.00. washing out the point of buying those death-trap shoes on sale.

so there i am wearing an orange skirt and new cheap PINK flip flops. there was some orange on the sole of the shoes (in a vague attempt to match, i guess) but let's not be fooled. they were bubble-gum pink. quite a bit less fabulous than the enzo angiolini's i was wearing earlier in the day. i'm sorry, let me revise - i wasn't so much as wearing them as having my feet turned into minute steaks in them.

regardless - i wore those flip flops home, the pretty new shoes in a bag by my side. and trust me - i did my level best to muster all the glamour of a fashion forward five-year-old as i walked back down the street.

[music david usher, "the music"]

7.18.2006

rockstar : supernova : week three

so after spending the week looking forward to this show i had to miss the first broadcast of it - seems my kitten artemis had decided to tear out all but one of her stitches during the day. so after an emergency trip to the vet and ordering pizza - i finally got to sit down with the taped show. gotta love the rogers pvr. i guess it's the canadian equivilent to the almighty tivo. but really, who knows (or cares).

patrice - helter skelter
apparently she had to FIGHT to get this song. ok. great. but i didn't see as much of that passion in her performance as i saw in the clips showing the 'debate' between jill and patrice.

josh - come as you are
i don't think i'm able to write about this performance. i just don't get josh as a performer. then again - it's not my band, is it? if supernova wants this grinning annoyance to front their band - that's their business. kurt - i'm sorry if you saw that performance from wherever it is you are now.

storm - just what i needed
what i just adore about storm is that she can sing pretty and clean and she can also deliver a dirty performance like this. messy but polished. and this woman's eyes seem to nearly sing the songs themselves. so expressive.

lukas - let's spend the night together
fucking unbelievable. seriously - where can i buy these tracks? lukas' and dilanah's performances and abilty are simply millions of miles above anyone else on this show (storm and magni are the closest out of everyone else). it's almost not fair to have those two compete against everyone else.

jill - all right now
damn this girl can sing. and she so obviously loves doing what she does. she'll be around for a while.

ryan star - fortunate son
right from the beginning his performances have bugged me. he gives off he aura that he believes he's the real deal - it's just too bad that he doesn't give real deal performances. i don't actually believe that he's a musician - something just smacks false.

phil - white rabbit (w/ jason newsted)
this was the best of phil to date. he really gave a great performance, perhaps it was the extra jolt he got from actually performing with such a distinctive bassist. it was so nice to see/hear that metallica thing.... wow. ok - i admit, i was a little distracted. ok... maybe i liked it more because of jason.

dana - it's my life
i really want this girl to do better. she has a great voice and i can see her eventually developing a great stage presence, but right now i just see her trying to be something that she's not 100% sure of. and was this song just in the wrong key for her, or what?

toby - runaway train
so so sad to see this performance. way way way to straight. couldn't he of been messy and quirked this up a little? he should of. but i think his performance was best summed up by my roomie : "he reminds me of charlie's older uncle". you know, charlie from lost... anyway... i started cackling madly.

magni - plush
one of my favourite songs ever and he didn't make me cringe! ;-> i'm half tempted to make an attempt to find some music from his band in iceland. he has attitude, vocal chops, rockstar delivery and he still makes me want to hug him like a teddy bear.

zayra - everybody hurts
i hope she stays on this show for a very long time - top 6 at least. and then when she finally gets asked to leave, i will be the first one on line to buy her album. i LOVE this woman's voice and style. i want more and more and more of her.

jenny - drive
oh good god. i'm sorry. this sucked for supernova - did anyone happen to catch the look on poor jason newsted's face mid-way through? he looked utterly bewildered. and the lilith fair comment was exactly what i was thinking. does she want this gig?

dilanah - zombie
the way she moves across the stage is so otherworldy, as is her command of the stage and every song she takes on. i've heard other singers attempt to deliver the song 'zombie' and fail to even match a drop of dolores o'riordon's passion. not our dilanah. she seemed to wring new emotion out of that powerful song.

if you want even more rockstar : supernova to tide you over until the elimination show tomorrow - check out this good review.

7.14.2006

he doesn't look a thing like jesus

my kitten artemis is spending her second night at the vet's. i miss her. she was spayed this morning and my fabu vet sent me a picture of her in "recovery" immediately post-surgery. now that's a good vet! it's almost like she wanted to prove that they still had the kitten. then again, considering the fact that 2 of my three cats had to be put to sleep in that clinic.... maybe they weren't so far off the mark to send me the picture.

and in exciting 'fuck you' news - turns out that a european court has determined that the song bmg merger should not have been authorized to proceed when it did. apparently they needed to provide more information before the merge was to be green-lit. then again - perhaps the merge would of never happened.

*le sigh* and then i'd still be working at the best job in the whole freakin' world. but instead i'm working at a crappy job for crappy pay. don't think i'm not looking for something that lets me plug my brain in a bit more. don't think it for a moment. regardless, seems like good news for the peeps at warner and emi. this court finding may just delay their proposed merger (once again).

still reeling over the purchase of chum tv by bell globemedia. i was going to go snooping around for a job on the chum tv side of things. i almost think it's not worth it right now. even if i did get a job there, who wants to go through a merger again, even if it is a "friendly" takeover bid. friendly... almost makes it sound like there will be face-painters and balloon animals and lollipops.

at long last there is new the killers music out! i love the song - but am not sure about it as a first single. you can have it rampage madly through your own brain by going to their myspace or hitting their website. yey for the killers! i miss the fun brandan flowers bitchery in the media.

and to kick off a fun weekend with the downstairs neighbours - the bastard nsf'd a cheque on me. urgh. he owed me 2 months of rent on the garage he's renting from me (it came with my apartment and i don't need it, yey for me!) and he freaking bounced the cheque. adding to the fun - my bank charged me $7.00 for the pleasure. it's a good thing for him that i don't have his phone number on hand. he would of gotten a slightly pissy and fairly condescending message from me. i'll remember to play nice when i go knocking on his door looking for cash.

[music | the killers, "when you were young"]

7.12.2006

swollen head

after fleeing work late in the afternoon yesterday, actually, it wasn't fleeing so much as lurching, i ended up staying at home today. i can't afford to take all these days off - but really, am i going to drag myself to work with a bad flu/cold/whatever in the pouring rain?

then i find that chum ltd (home to citytv and the much music family) is being bought out by Bell Globemedia (CTV, MTV Canada, TSN and others). wow. this is a giant move in broadcasting. on on a personal note - all of a sudden not getting an interview for the job at MTV that i would of been perfect for doesn't matter anymore. who needs another merger mess right now? not me.

can you imagine it? a world without much music? they may have been swarmy and missed the point more than three-quarters of the time, but at least they weren't from the land of dorks (CTV, in case you're wondering). i hope that we don't lose city tv here in toronto though - i'd miss my cp24 for quick local news. chum hasn't commented yet - so this might still be speculation - then again, no one to be the one taken over.

last night was the 2nd installment of the live show for rockstar : supernova. and even though i could barely raise my head off of the back of the sofa, here are my thoughs - for what it's worth.

magni - my generation
interacted with the house band, less ego-driven gimmicks and better audience relations. he looked and sounded better than he did last week. but i don't think the band digs him.

jenny galt - tainted love
i actually *heart* this song and was really curious to see what she was going to do with it. she sang well her voice was not nearly as timid as it was last week. i think the performance was still a little dull, she needs to find a way to deliver a performance for this show. and what a strange comment by tommy lee at the end - telling her to go eat because she looked hungry.

jill gioia - violet
holy fuck. are you kidding me? are you going to apply for an impersonator job when you get booted. her performance was way too faithful to courtney love. and the band called her out on it. poor jill. this may just spell her doom.

zayra alvarez - you really got me
i can not say enough about this girl. she is an amazing performer who so far has delivered two very different and phenomenal performances, but i just don't know WHY she's on this show. she needs to find a producer to work with on her strange and quirky neo-gothic debut.

chris - take me out
he seemed to yell in the same tone constantly. i don't know if there's enough depth there. i found this performance boring and unfortunately, so did the supernova-ites.

dilanah - ring of fire
this woman is still the obvious winner, in my opinion. she took this powerful song and switched it up completely and made something all together new. looking like the high priestess of the hellfire club she delivered her song in a way that left no room for criticism. it was like a gothic wet dream meeting a snake charmer.

josh - arms wide open
stop smiling! just stop it! i have been known to hate-on creed and scott stapp before, but this performance made me wish i was listening to creed's version. for those that know me - that says all i need to say.

phil ritchie - eyes wide open
the band is all over this guy. they lurve him. and i don't know why. i think he's a generic radio singer - but then again, if he's a generic singer guy, he should garner some play for supernova, especially in the states. me - i just don't get it.

storm large - surrender
great energy and a very strong voice. i think dave navarro gave her some great advice when he told her she needed to have character, not be a character. hopefully she takes this to heart.

patrice pike - heart shaped box
seeing her sit in the stands, i honestly didn't know who she was. did her look change from last week? or was she that forgettable? i seem to recall that last week gilby clarke told her that she seemed to be the only one who really wanted the job. regardless, her performance this week did not connect for me.

lukas rossi - don't panic
not being a coldplay person, i had no idea what this song was going to be, but was sure i'd recognize it when it started. not only did i not recognize it, but i actually think i'd buy lukas' version of this song. i think the band put another coldplay song in the list this week just to see who'd be dumb enough to take it after their lesson of "song choice is king". in someone else's hands this could of been certain doom. for lukas, it was like icing on the cake left over from last week.

ryan star - jumpin' jack flash
seeing him standing in the wings and hearing brooke burke say he was going to sing 'jumpin jack flash' i said aloud, "it's gonna be like a wedding." and it was. urgh. and he was dull and awkward on stage to boot.

dana - born to be wild
this girl has a fucking amazing voice, so incredible. but, watching her this week was painful. it was hard to watch her mince about like a sex-kitten. she needs to figure it out - but i think with some guidance - she will.

toby - somebody told me
someone did this song last season and just sucked. this guy did not suck and actually was able to pull it off. but i kept wishing that he'd done more of an industrial feel to his arrangement. it would of been killer with his voice.

the result show runs tonight. from their comments - i think supernova is leading the audience to put chris in the bottom three again and i think he'll be heading home - unless someone does some bone-head move like duran duran again, or wears another wedding dress.

[music | pink floyd, "wish you were here"]

7.11.2006

tempt not yon hell-cat

i woke up on the weekend only to discover that i have a somehow caught the dreaded summer cold. it began with with razor blade swallowing, moved on to congestion and aching kidneys/gums and is now settling nicely into the 'plugged ears' portion of our game.

needless to say, work seems to be taking an eternity to get through. in honour of this - i thought i'd post a few little distractions.

a friend of mine sent this to me ages ago - but am just now getting around posting it. someone has taken clips from various george w. speaches and made him sing u2's "sunday bloody sunday". it's nothing short of brilliant. watch and be amazed.

and of course - this is just too hideous for words. almost too hideous for the eyes too. the one (and thankfully only) huff.

bringing me to the end of my lunch hour - please be entertained by making fiends. it's several short flash cartoons about a girl named charolotte and a girl named vendetta. vendetta makes fiends.... you have to watch them to understand. it's made by the same person who did my beloved muffinfilms several years ago. long live creativity.

[music | keane, "is it any wonder?"]

7.06.2006

cubical hell

i honestly swear that this was done by someone in my office. it is nearly a perfect description of my current employment situation.

[music | the killers, "andy you're a star"]

rockstar : supernova

i have to say it - the name blows. supernova? c'mon. you'd think those burnouts would be able to think of something better to name their mega-super-fantabulous-lordsoftheuniverse-group other than some tired re-tread of an vaguely 80's-sounding phrase. then again, what is this series other than finding musicians from the 80's a new singer boy/gurl for the, er, 2000's. (i refuse to type the oo's. it just looks odd. bring on 2010!

but i digress. get used to it. last summer i had great fun blogging about the shows and my take on the performances. so in my own sad attempt to recapture the past (except in my case, it's only 12 months ago, not 12+ years ago) please find my thoughts and ramblings forthwith.

it was nice to see dave navarro back. these days he comes off more like a giant care-bear than a guitar-god, but i can hardly hold it against him. we'll need the balance with tommy lee sitting next to him on ye ole rockstar sofa. and brooke burke was dressed in some strange metallic dishrags. ala kiera knightly, however, brooke looks healthy, even if her hair is a tad over-done.

and the new kiddies, even though some of them look a bit riper than kindergarten. ;-)

storm large - pinball wizard
yes, she claims that's her real name. good for her. bad for her parents. but she held this song together very very well. she'll be around for a long time.

ryan star - iris
oh my good gods. i was taking short notes with a pen and paper (so i could remember names and songs for blogging later) and i had to stop myself from jamming my pen into my ear drum. my only note about this guy was, "generic radio singer".

toby rand - knocking on heaven's door
and of course this song is a classic. and of course this aussie decided to go accoustic with it. and of course it was predictable, but his voice had something really special to it. please pick something a little more out there next week.

patrice pike - somebody to love
i wanted to like her, but she seemed a bit, well, i don't know. a bit like she was trying a bit too hard to be one of the boys. however, the band told her that she seemed like she really wanted the job. so i guess maybe they are looking for a boy-singer. or at least a gurl who's not gurrly.

magni - satisfaction.
poor little icelandic buddy. his voice was deep and growly, quite different from the boy-men filling the rest of the show, but his performance wasn't really quite rock. it was ok, but a bit too cheesy and ego-rific. if he sticks around, he may improve if he's a fast study.

zayra - bring me to life
this girl is so not for this band, but she was utterly and completely captivating. her voice isn't nearly as strong as anyone else's, but i think she'd be better suited to front her own band. and better off singing songs that don't push her vocal cords quite as much. then again, if kelly clarkson can have a career with her crappy voice - this girl can too.

jenny galt - generic nickelback song (missed the title, not that it matters, they all sound the same)
again, so not right for this band. my notes for her read, "chick rock, can't sing and skirt is too short". i'm sorry vancouver. it's just not going to happen.

josh logan - she talks to angels
urh. yuck. find him a christian rock band to smile in front of.

matt hopper - yellow
for a man, has a very pretty and nice voice - but i'm thinking this is the extent of his range. i don't think he can dirty it up for the mighty supernova. (nope, still don't like the name)

dilana - lithium.
done. she's perfect. insane, but perfect. it will be interesting to see if she stays strong or fades quickly and becomes tiresome. off the top of the show, it seems like the gig is either hers or lukas' - but we haven't gotten to him yet....

dana andrews - i'm the only one
is it just me, or did that song get sung every other week last season. or was it just that every other song that dana johnson (is that her name?) did sounded like that? i really really dug this girl's voice - but i have a feeling this might all she can do.

phil ritchie - cult of personality
ok. not great, but ok. something about him reminded me of my friend frank mixed with scott weiland. random, i know.

jill gioni - piece of my heart
another case of, "wasn't this song done to death last year"? i hope dana and jill and patrice can all do something other than what they did this week. otherwise you'll see a fast exit by the females.
chris pierson - roxanne
poor bastard. how do you do that song? apparently not like he did it. i think he can do A LOT more than what he showed tonight, but i'm worried he may get an early boot.

lukas rossi - rebel yell
easily my favourite cover of the night. and easily the most developed performer of the night. hands down. lukas has been kicking around toronto for years, has a major publisher behind him and a big-time record producer helping him out. this is all good. if supernova doesn't happen for him - this will just bring it all to a boil for him. go lukas! :-)

[music | rayna, "unnamed angel"]

6.17.2006

one down, and not in a good way

yeah. so. i didn't get the job. it's still not official, coz the fuckers haven't called me yet - but i've heard through some pretty reliable sources that someone who also used to work for them has just left his current gig. i'll bet you all a million dollars that he got the job. of course he did. so now their a&r department is full of men. and entire department of guys. how lame is that? not that i have anything against men - but c'mon - a little gender diversity isn't a bad thing....

le sigh. i'm now back to wondering what that hell went wrong in my life. why can i not get the things i want? this industry really blows. what a mistake it was to get into it. and then shame on me, get BACK into it. i had my chance to leave. but now i'm kind of stuck. with no prospects other than my current dead-boring one-task a day gig. and that's worth a really big le sigh.

so. this leaves me with one big want now.


no more split focus. all energies are now on the oilers winning the stanley cup. game 6 in edmonton goes tonight at 8:00 est. i'm nervous and anxious for them. in articles they say they are calm - good for them - it's because i'm taking up all the nervious energy for them!

thought i'd post a few pictures of my trip to edmonton for game 4. enjoy, or not.

this is currently my desktop image. pretty cool.

an essential part of any game-day expeience is getting there ontime for the pre-game skate. so so exciting!

a few hours before the puck dropped, cbc was getting some footage. my dad's in this picture! and no - my dad is not don cherry.

6.14.2006

an essay on wanting

my gods. i want two things very very badly right now.
1 - an a&r job
2 - the oilers to win the stanley cup

the whole sordid saga of my job interview is too tedious to put here. briefly... i had an interview. it went well. i have done the job before and i seem to be a natural no-brainer to hire. that being said, this industry is never one to go with brains. if you know what i mean. i was promised that i'd be 'hearing from them very soon'. then i got a return message to my thank-you for the interview email telling me they would make a decision by the following week.

by mid-week i was wound tighter than a (i don't know, insert metaphor of your liking here) and making myself ill over it. i sent another quick email asking them for a timeline on their decision and told them again how excited i was by the opportunity that they have to offer... blah blah blah. by the friday i still hadn't heard from them and i was leaving toronto on the saturday not to be back until the following wednesday. not wanting to send them another note so soon, i decided to send my contact info to the vp of hr. she sent me back an email telling me she 'believed' that they had made a decision to hire from within but that she still hadn't heard from them either.

i was bummed. what a way to go off to edmonton in an attempt to cheer on the oilers. so so bummed.

anyway - i'm back now, but my sources at the company say that an annoucement has not yet been made about the new hire. and i still haven't heard anything at all from the guys i interviewed with. should i rekindle my dying spark of hope? (ok, let's be serious - it wasn't a dying spark. it was dead. as a door nail. done. over. finished. boo.) i am starting to have a little flicker of hope that the game is still afoot. maybe it's still meant to be mine?

please?

and regarding my other want - the oilers play the hurricanes tonight at 8:00pm. if we can win this one, we go back to edmonton. the oilers have come too far to have their season end tonight. GO OILERS GO!

i'll be the crazed person yelling at her tv at the top of her lungs tonight.

so much wanting. please give me a little satisfaction.

[music | editors, "munich"]

6.01.2006

past | present | future

a friend of mine scolded me for abandoning ye ole blog. i don't know if it was more the fact that these pages are languishing away - or the fact i left off with an entry about paris hilton. regardless - i think those who aren't even updating their own blog shouldn't be too smug!

gainful employment has cut down on my blogging time. that and my seemingly ever-increasing obsession with myspace. regardless - much has happened. not the least of which involves me going on a job interview. a job interview for a job i really really really really really really want. how do i know this with such certainty? well, you see, it's a job i had up until a year and a half ago. it was the best job in the world. seriously. i ended up getting laid off in a merger and now the person they decided to keep instead of me has taken a more senior job at another company. opening the door for me once more.

going into too many details may just jinx the damned thing - so i will leave it at a request for anyone still reading this poor neglected page to send some serious luck and positive energy my way. pretty please?

also - i've been pretty much a shut-in for the duration of the stanley cup playoffs. i grew up just west of edmonton and in edmonton you watch hockey. watch hockey and shop in a giant eyesore of a mall. when i wasn't killing time in the mall or shutting myself away in the basement to listen to music, i was watching hockey. as a result - i am still a hardcore oiler fan. and my boys are 4 wins away from bringing home the stanely cup once more! the last time they won it was in 1990 - the year i moved to toronto. it's been a while.

why am i telling you this? how about because i am going to GAME THREE OF THE STANLEY CUP PLAYOFFS. yes, indeed. june 10th in edmonton. i fly out to edmonton in the morning and come back on the following tuesday. if luck is on my side the oilers will sweep the cup and i'll be returning to toronto as a very giddy oiler-gurl.

i'm going to try updating this forsaken page a little more frequently. and i hope i can update it soon with news about my new job and that the stanley cup is in canada once more.

[music | snow patrol, "chasing cars"]

4.22.2006

4.04.2006

mother theresa = paris hilton

paris hilton is going to be asked to portray the late mother theresa in a film.

i don't know... i have no words.

[music | editors, "munich"]